This author wishes to remain anonymous. Here's her story...
I am so grateful for this blog (thank you Deb and Georgie!) since I really wanted to get some perspective on this situation from others, but I don't feel comfortable posting this on my blog.
In a nutshell, here is the situation: I am considering having weight loss surgery (Gastric Bypass) and I am trying to decide if I should do it or not. I have about 75-80lbs to lose and I am right on the border line as far as someone who is or is not eligible for surgery.
Generally if you have a BMI of 35-40, you are eligible for surgery if you have another existing condition associated with being overweight (i.e. sleep apnea, high blood pressure, diabetes, etc.). Once you reach a BMI of 40 you are generally eligible just with that alone.
Here's my situation: 3 weeks ago my BMI was 35.9 which will probably be considered for surgery since I have also tested positive for Sleep Apnea. However, at 35.9, I am right on the line of being eligible and not eligible. Then last night when I went to the doctor again I was weighed and I lost 6lbs in the last 3 weeks (he gave me a med to try) which brings me to a BMI of exactly 35.
So my quandary is this - do I continue to try and lose on my own and become ineligible for surgery or do I stop trying and stay in the range to be considered? Initially I thought, well, if I've done 6lbs, I could probably do this on my own, but let's be real - all these years (I have always struggled with my weight and have progressively been gaining every year for the last 10 years) I haven't, so what makes me think I could do it now? I've lost 6lbs, but could I really keep it up to lose another 75 on my own which is what I need to do? Honestly, I doubt it if you ask me. That is a LONG way to go.
So, this is where I am at. I told my doctor that since the process takes so long (usually it takes 6 months to a year to get from the time you say you want the surgery to actually having it), I want to start it and continue to think about it as the process goes along. He gave me the referral to the surgeon and now I just have to make the appointment, but honestly if I lose any more weight I probably won't even be a candidate.
Part of me is like, I can do this myself and don't need to take this drastic step, but then the other part of me is like how many years have I said that and I have never actually done it? Yes, it's possible, but will I? The surgery will ensure I do it whether I want to or not since you are physically forced to do it based on the changes made to your body. Again, I am not convinced it's the right thing for me, that's why I am still debating this. I have the referral to the doctor though and I am going to make the appointment and continue to move forward with this until and if I definitely decide not to pursue it.
What would you do considering all this?